It's been one of those days. It seems like Ronnie is a million miles away. I had to pay for Ronnie's speeding ticket (not cheap these days). I had to take Gram Jackie to the hospital. The last one scares me because she is never sick. My other grandma is always in the hospital, but never this one. Then I go to the post office to get a certified letter stating that we weren't qualified for the home buyer's credit. Yuck. Like I said, just one of those days.
I cried. A lot. I try not to do that. But when a cocky-thinks-he-knows-it-all-rent-a-cop hospital security guard gets ugly with me I don't do well. Especially when he's keeping me from my grandma. (I am in the process of filing a formal complaint with the hospital about that.) But I put on the strong face for my sweet Grandma. So many times she's been my rock and I knew I could return the favor. She should be ok, but I still worry about her. And since it has been a tough day I miss her more. Because normally on bad days she listens and gives me some of the best advice that there is to give. So please say a little prayer for my grandma. Or a big one if you can. She deserves it.
Then I cried over some other stuff.
But I'm trying to keep my spirits up. I've always struggled with my emotions. I used to always be the happy-go-lucky girl in the group that made everyone laugh. I don't know when I lost that. Or suppressed it. But I miss it. I want it back, but I feel so stuck. I'll keep working on it. I know that Melissa is still in there. I'll just have to go get her and bring her over so we can have some fun together.
Sorry about that ramble. But I had to preface the next part of my post so you would understand. I'm a lucky girl. I can call my wonderful husband and talk to him about anything and everything. And he always makes me feel better.
But today I needed a hug. A really big hug. A hug that lets you know it's all going to be okay. A hug that tells you that you are an awesome person and no one can take your place. I needed my superhero! And with a "Da da da daaaaa!" he was here! Amazing!
And I know he's a superhero. He knew exactly what was wrong. He said, "I'm a superhero Mama. And I'm gonna make you not cry!" And you know what? It worked. Plus, he had a "cate" (cape). "You know, Mama, a blanket on my back!"
And you know what else? I got my hug. And I knew it was all going to be ok. Because I have an amazing life. I just needed a little reminding.